Blood Kiss

 
Psychological Romantic/Suspense
Date Published: June 2016
 
Alisha Woods knew she was in trouble. The situation was progressing. The harmless flirtation had long past intriguing and now bordered on terrifying. She had to take action, go on the offensive against her stalker. As she opened the door of Young Guns, she promised herself that she’d be ready when he came for her. She would survive. 
Mike Lewis lived each day knowing that life could evaporate in a moment. Ghosts followed him, haunting his soul. He craved redemption, a chance to right the wrongs of his past. And when Alisha walked in, he recognized his chance at redemption. He would save her. 
After everything Mike had done to prepare her, she thought she was ready. But as the blood spilled from her lips, Alisha’s mind raced for what she could have done differently… 
She should have listened to Mike. 
 
 
Excerpt
 
 Mike waited for her to say more. He was a patient man. He knew enough about human nature to know that if he didn’t say anything she’d eventually fill in the silence. He tried to look relaxed by resting his arms on the table and interlocking his fingers, but inside a storm was brewing.
“He knows where I live,” she said soberly. She looked into Mike’s eyes for strength. Even though he was intimidating, she saw goodness in him. She hoped that he could be more than a shooting instructor.
Mike didn’t like the man knowing where she lived, but this information didn’t surprise him. If the guy had been stalking her for a while, he knew all sorts of things about her that would make her skin crawl. He probably even tracked her monthly cycle.
She sucked in a deep breath and began, “I was going out with some friends, but I needed to stop by my house to drop something off. I didn’t bother parking in the garage,” she said with a shrug of her shoulder. “I just pulled into the driveway and ran into the house. I didn’t even lock the car.” She tilted her head and rubbed her fingers over her forehead, as if massaging herself would delete the memory of that night. “I was just going to be inside for a minute.” She sat straighter and looked Mike in the eyes. She found strength in him even though he sat silently. “But a friend called. The plans had changed, and she wanted to update me,” Alisha added casually. She scoffed and gave him a sad smile. “When I went back out to the car, a stuffed animal lay on my seat.”
Mike read the tension in her face as her muscles tightened around her eyes and mouth. She swallowed more frequently and her breathing had increased as she relayed the information. He smiled, trying to silently encourage her, but what she told him made his heart pound. “He was watching you,” Mike said calmly. He didn’t want to scare her any more than she already was.
“Yeah,” she nodded. “He must have seen me get out of my car and run inside.” She shook her head slowly in disbelief. “He was there. He was probably looking at me at that very moment.” She shivered and looked through the window into the darkness of night. “I didn’t see him. I didn’t see anyone that I could even question. None of my neighbors were outside.” She paused for a moment and then began again, “I don’t think he followed me. I think he was waiting for me.”
Mike nodded slowly. “He was there.” Mike knew how to hide. He could disappear in a jungle, desert, or city. Disappearing was one of his strengths, but he didn’t like hearing that the stalker could hide too. Most people would do something stupid and give themselves away: the shaking of leaves or the snapping of branches, wearing the wrong clothes for camouflage. There were so many things to consider when trying to disappear. “What did you do?”
 
 
 
Karen Tjebben lives in central North Carolina with her wonderful husband, twin daughters, and two hamsters. When her girls left for kindergarten, Karen discovered that she needed to fill her days with something, and that was the beginning of her new career in writing. She loves to create worlds filled with unique creatures that she hopes will delight and raise goose bumps on her readers. In her free time, she enjoys traveling with her husband and seeing the world through her daughters’ eyes.
 
 
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Keeping Score

 

Women’s Fiction
On Sale – Only $.99 July 25-31
Recipient of the Crowned Heart Award from In’Dtale Magazine!
When her 9-year-old son wanted to play summer travel baseball, Shannon had no idea the toughest competition was off the field…. When her son Sam asks to try out for a travel baseball team, divorced mom Shannon Stevens thinks it’ll be a fun and active way to spend the summer. Boy, is she wrong! From the very first practice, Shannon and Sam get sucked into a mad world of rigged try-outs, professional coaches, and personal hitting instructors. But it’s the crazy, competitive parents who really make Shannon’s life miserable. Their sons are all the second coming of Babe Ruth, and Sam isn’t fit to fetch their foul balls. Even worse, Shannon’s best friend Jennifer catches the baseball fever. She schemes behind the scenes to get her son Matthew on the town’s best baseball team, the Saints. As for Sam? Sorry, there’s no room for him! Sam winds up on the worst team in town, and every week they find new and humiliating ways to lose to the Saints.
And the action off the field is just as hot. Shannon finds herself falling for the Saints’ coach, Kevin. But how can she date a man who didn’t think her son was good enough for his team … especially when the whole baseball world is gossiping about them? Even Shannon’s ex-husband David gets pulled into the mess when a randy baseball mom goes after him. As Sam works to make friends, win games and become a better baseball player, Shannon struggles not to become one of those crazy baseball parents herself. In this world, it’s not about whether you win, lose, or how you play the game… it’s all about KEEPING SCORE.
Praise for Keeping Score:
 
“I really enjoyed Keeping Score… If you are ready for a fun read, and want to know who comes out on top (will it be Team Shannon or Team Jennifer?),  give this book a read.” – Chick Lit Central
 
“KEEPING SCORE is a great read–one I didn’t want to put down. I would recommend it for anyone looking for a fun take on life, love, and kids.” – Caroline Fardig, bestselling author of “It’s Just a Little Crush”
 
“All in all this was a fun read that keeps the story going and will have your mouth dropping open at certain points… Grab this book and sit down for a fun, light read!” — Joe Cool Review
 
“A must-read for any sports or contemporary lovers…” five stars! – InD’tale Magazine
 
“Keeping Score by Jami Deise is a wonderful novel, a story of love, despair, desire, and hope all mixed into one.” Anne Marie Reynolds for Reader’s Favorite
 
EXCERPT
 Sam grabbed his baseball bag out of my trunk and ran down the hill to the softball field, where the try-out was taking place. I was still in my work shoes, so I followed slowly behind.
 When the field was in sight, I couldn’t believe my eyes. A huge banner proclaiming “SAINTS BASEBALL” was strung across the backstop. There were nearly seventy nine-year-old boys, all wearing their baseball uniforms. The single set of bleachers overflowed with parents, who were also standing behind the backstop and near the baselines. Even Saints founder Patrick O’Connor had made an appearance. He seemed very pleased every time some star-struck dad asked for an autograph.
When I got closer, I could hear the parents’ anxious, boastful chatter.
 “Saints assured us that the try-out’s just a formality for Trevor. They’ve been trying to get him to play select since he was six, but we didn’t think that was fair to the other kids, having to be on a team with someone so much younger and so much better.”
 “I thought it was too soon, but Kyle’s pitching coach wanted to get a number. He’s already throwing seventy miles an hour. The coach thinks he’ll be at ninety five in high school.”
 “Jeremy isn’t going to be able to blossom to his full development in a cold-weather state. We’ll be moving to Florida in the fall so he can play year-round. The Florida State coach said he’d sign him right now if he could.”
 That gnawing feeling that showed up every time Sam was at bat took up residence in my stomach. What if David were right? What if all these kids threw sixty miles an hour, made plays that made Derek Jeter look klutzy, and hit the ball into Virginia?
 Then I remembered what Mike had said: That based on what he’d seen, Sam should have no problem making the Saints team. I took a deep breath and told myself that all this bragging was just that, and if I wanted to, I could sit down and babble about how two select teams were fighting over Sam, and which one should we chose?
 A tall man wearing a Saints jersey that said “Coach Kevin” pinned the number 55 on Sam’s back, and pointed for him to join other kids warming up in the outfield. Sam ran out there, his belly jiggling ever so slightly. The coach jotted something down on a clipboard. He was about my age, with an athletic build, curly brown hair underneath his baseball cap, a tanned face, and a cleft chin. His butt wasn’t bad, either.
I reminded myself that I wasn’t here to ogle coaches.
 Sam started throwing, but the balls weren’t coming back to him with any sort of regularity. I couldn’t see who his partner was, just the kid’s back — Sam was playing with number 1.
 I looked for a place to sit on the bleachers. And that’s when I saw her. Jennifer. She was covering her face with a paperback, obviously hiding from me. As if I wouldn’t recognize my own best friend from the neck down.
 Now I understood that look between Jennifer and Scott Sunday night, when I said I didn’t even know summer teams existed. It wasn’t, “Why didn’t Mike ask Matthew to play on his team.” It was, “Let’s hope Shannon doesn’t find out about the Saints try-out.”
 Someone who avoided confrontation might sit on the other side of the bleachers and pretend not to see her backstabbing best friend. But that someone wasn’t me. I climbed over a few people and squeezed in right next to Jennifer.
 “Didn’t we read that in book club last year?” I asked.
 She put the book down and painted on a big phony smile. “I never got around to finishing it. Shannon, I thought you already decided Sam was going to play for Mike this summer.”
 “He can’t. His league won’t take Saints kids.”
 “Oh. Because, that’s the only reason we didn’t mention the try-out to you.”
 “Really? So when exactly were you going to tell me? Because two days ago, I didn’t know anything about this.”
 On the field, the kids finished their warm-up throws and got into lines at shortstop, second and first base. Now I could see that number 1 was Matthew. He got into the shortstop line, while Sam was directed to first.
 A different coach walked up to home plate, struggling with a heavy bucket of balls and a metal bat under his arm. My stomach flipped as the true depth of the betrayal hit me. That coach was Scott. Obviously he had moved up in the coaching world, a promotion if you would, from rec to select coach.
 And he never bothered to say a damn thing about it. Not to Sam or any of the kids on the Rockets.
 I felt like someone had punched me in the stomach.
 Jennifer sighed, blowing her bangs up off of her forehead. Not a guilt sigh, but something more akin to righteous annoyance.
 “Here’s the thing. The boys all do everything together. They’re interchangeable. Same classes, even though Matthew should be in the G&T program. Same teams. Same people, over and over again. Scott and I felt that Matthew really needed an activity that was his and his alone. So he could start to figure out who he was as a person.”
 So Matthew was having an existential crisis. Nine years old seemed a little young for that, but everyone was an overachiever here in Persimmon.
 Who was this person? Who was this woman, whom I’d called my best friend for years? How could she do this to us?
 “And when Patrick told Scott he needed another coach for the U10 team, it just seemed obvious.”
 Patrick. As in Patrick O’Connor, the “Saint” of Saints Baseball, who was sitting three rows above us and to the left. Of course. Scott knew him through his work with the Orioles foundation. He’d only mentioned it a few hundred times.
 Scott was hitting ground balls to the kids at short and second. They fielded them, and then threw to the kids at first.
 Matthew and Sam came up at the same time. Scott hit a soft grounder to Matthew, so soft it barely came off the bat. Even so, it went through Matthew’s legs. Scott grimaced, then hit him another one. This one bounced off of Matthew’s knee. He dropped his glove on it, then picked up the ball and threw it to Sam.
 The ball was nowhere near first base. Sam jumped into the base line, made the grab, then stretched his foot out to snag the bag.
 Jennifer bit her lip. “He just really needs an activity that’s his and his alone,” she repeated. “Where he can shine, without all the pressure of performing for his friends. Can’t you understand?”
 “Of course,” I said, as another ball went through Matthew’s legs.
 I patted Jennifer on the back. “But maybe you should have picked an activity that Matthew’s actually good at.”
 I didn’t mean the words to sound as cruel as they did. But Jennifer’s face turned red, and her smile disappeared. “We’re supposed to be best friends,” she hissed. “But you’re so damned competitive where Sam and sports are concerned. I get it; he’s good. But you don’t have to make everyone else feel so terrible.”
 She grabbed her book and stomped off loudly down the bleachers, joining the other parents behind the backstop.
A baseball mom since 1999, Jami Deise wrote her first novel, KEEPING SCORE, about crazy travel ball parents, in 2013. Her second novel, THE TIES THAT BLEED, is about a vampire assassin for the FBI, although she personally has little experience slaying vampires. Jami is an associate reviewer at http://www.chicklitcentral.com and blogs at http://www.jamideise.blogspot.com. She currently lives (and sells real estate) in St. Pete Beach, Florida, with her husband Tom and dog Lady. Her college-aged son still plays baseball.
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Lioness of Kell

 
Young Adult / Light Fantasy Adventure
Date Published: March 16, 2016
 
Secure in his position as the Prince-warlock’s son, seventeen-year-old Basil is content with his solitary life of study and magic. He has a comfortable set of rooms in his father’s tower, he has his books and scrolls, and he is perfectly happy. Until the Warlockry Council summons him, and their demands sets his whole, safe existence tottering. Scared and unsure, he decides to run, and takes the first ship out of town. On board he meets Yarwan, the handsome midshipman, who awakens feelings he never knew existed.
 
Maud of the M’Brannoe, at eighteen already a mighty warrioress, is about to graduate as a Lioness, a special duty officer answering to the Kell Queen and no one else. The Prince-warlock asks her to fetch a certain boy from a pirate town, who could act as a double for his son. On their way back, someone sabotages their airship and the two find themselves marooned in an ill-reputed forest. Together, the young lioness and Jurgis the lookalike battle their way to the coast and a ship home, while finding solace in each other’s arms.
 
Then the four young people meet, and Basil learns of a spell that might help him. Only the spell’s creator, the infamous Arrangh Warlock, disappeared nearly a century ago. When the four young people decide to go searching for him, they start on a path leading to an old war and unsolved mysteries that will change the world. Or kill them.
 
A spirited fantasy story of high adventure and romantic love in a world where both magic and early modern technology flourish.
 
 
Review 
 

A fun walk in a new fantasy world. I really enjoyed Paul E. Horsman’s imagery and attention to detail.

 
I think there were definitely parts of the novel that could have been better executed, but overall it was a solid YA Adventure / Fantasy.
 
Paul E. Horsman (1952) is a Dutch and International Fantasy Author. Born in the sleepy garden village of Bussum, The Netherlands, he now lives in Roosendaal, a town on the Dutch-Belgian border.
He has been a soldier, a salesman, a scoutmaster and from 1995 till his school closed in 2012 a teacher of Dutch as a Second Language and Integration to refugees from all over the globe.
He is a full-time writer of light fantasy adventures for Y.A. and older. His books are both published in the Netherlands, and internationally.
 
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Bring Your Own Baker

Cozy Mystery / Comedy
Date Published: June 20, 2016
 
 
 
Anna just wants to earn enough money on the side to buy into the bakery, Callie’s Cakes, where she works together with her best nerd pal Callie. The last thing she expects to see when she walks into Arthur’s apartment to do some moonlighting is a blood bath. Callie’s ready to jump into the investigation into Arthur’s murder, and she’s bringing another bakery worker, Kristie, into their hijinks whether Kristie wants to or not. But things aren’t as they seem. There are gang affiliations, illegal gambling dens, and ladies of the night to wade through. Will Anna and Callie discover who murdered Arthur or will Callie’s detective boyfriend Ben and Anna’s self-appointed protector put a stop to such aspirations? 
Come join us at Callie’s Cakes, where murder investigations are on the menu, but make sure to bring your own baker because Anna’s a bit preoccupied at the moment. 
Warning: This is NOT your mom’s cozy mystery. Bring Your Own Baker may be a ‘clean’ read, but if gangs, illegal gambling, and pimps make you turn your nose up at your e-reader, you might want to skip this one. Although you’ll be missing some sizzling chemistry between Anna and her protector. Not to mention a whole bunch of witty dialogue. 
 
 
 
Review 
 

I was very happy with the way DE Haggerty wove her story. It all started with the most important part, the characters. When reading, we really need to understand the characters and who they are above all else. I think that Haggerty really managed to nail that aspect of the novel.

 

Up next is Plot and Pacing. I thought that the plot overall was well done. It didn’t feel like it dragged or went to quick for me to keep up.
Wit and Humor were laced throughout and really helped to lighten the overall tone of the novel.
 
 
 
 
 
I grew up reading everything I could get my hands on from my mom’s Harlequin romances to Nancy Drew to Little Women. When I wasn’t flipping pages in a library book, I was penning horrendous poems, writing songs no one should ever sing, or drafting stories which have thankfully been destroyed. College and a stint in the U.S. Army came along, robbing me of free time to write and read, although I did manage every once in a while to sneak a book into my rucksack between rolled up socks, MRIs, t-shirts, and cold weather gear. A few years into my legal career, I was exhausted, fed up, and just plain done. I quit my job and sat down to write a manuscript, which I promptly hid in the attic after returning to the law. Another job change, this time from lawyer to B&B owner and I was again fed up and ready to scream I quit, which is incredibly difficult when you own the business. Thus, I shut the B&B during the week and in the off-season and started writing. Several books later I find myself in Istanbul writing full-time.
 
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Divorced and Scared No More!

 
Self-Help, Divorce, Relationships
Date Published: March 2016
 
 
 
Author Tasher releases three new books on life after divorce – Divorced and Scared No More! Therapist and clinical author Justin Nutt LSCSW, LAC consults as her technical advisor. Co-Author Tony Haynes is a practitioner of Acrostic Poetry -poetry where the first, last or other letters in a line spell out a particular word or phrase. At the end of each chapter, you can look forward to reading a clever poem from words found within the word DIVORCE.  
 
On her 26th wedding anniversary, Tasher divorced and embarked on a new life. Her marriage was broken all to pieces, she was not going to let the divorce break her. Tasher quickly discovered that single life was very different from all those years ago. Like many, she initially was scared. Yet she was determined to become Divorce and Scared NO More!
 
Despite her dyslexia, she decided to share with others things she learned while rebuilding her life. The launch of DASNM.com quickly received a worldwide following. The logo was inspired by a set of broken pilot wings. No two people will have identical situations, hopefully the DASNM series will assist others with the least amount of trepidation, during this difficult transition.
 
Book one, Divorced and Scared No More: Emotional Support for the Newly Divorced (ISBN: 978-1498465854) is the first installment of the three-part trilogy written to assist readers in post-divorce related matters while providing you the motivation you need to move on.
 
Book two, Divorced and Scared No More: Practical Advice for the Newly Divorced (ISBN: 978-1498465106) shares views on maintaining cordial relationships with ex-spouses, with a focus on children and extended families. Topics readers can look forward to discovering answers to include: attending special events with your ex-spouse, the impact of divorce on children, ways to arrange custody issues, how to handle separate holidays, and handling finances. You’ll find ways to embrace your new found freedom and turn the lemons life threw at you into a Zesty Lemon Sorbet!
 
Book three, Divorced and Scared No More: Dating After Divorce: From Lemons to Zesty Lemon Sorbet (ISBN: 978-1498465120) shows readers how to turn the lemons of divorce into an experience of acceptance and renewal, carrying this into dating. In this reading, Tasher gives you tools to help you get back out there and find the love that awaits you. Inside this book, you’ll gauge your emotional availability to see if you’re ready to accept the fun and excitement that comes with dating. Here you’ll learn how to put your ex and baggage behind you to engage in the present moment. Divorced and Scared No More: Dating After Divorce: From Lemons to Zesty Lemon Sorbet shows you where to find love, dating safety and how to set up your profiles on dating sites.
 
 
Excerpts

Living Life Free of Fears

Each and every day dawns upon us brand new. Today can be the day you take the chance to make entirely new choices. (Yes, it is.) Rather than waiting for the perfect day or time, now is the best chance you have to start over and make everything right. Really, it is! So why wait? The sooner you get on track and begin living the life you want and deserve, the sooner you will reach your goal.

Life after a long relationship ends is difficult (just a slight understatement). In the very beginning I was just another lady down on love. I was married for over twenty years to the same person, and it came to an abrupt end one day—on our anniversary, no less. It was a terrible way for the marriage to end. After taking time to lick my wounds, I once again became my ever‑optimistic self. I have found my way through divorce’s aftermath by staying positive, always putting my children first, and focusing on my freedom to make positive changes for myself as a result of my divorce.

As with everything in life, there will be both good and bad days following the realization you’re getting divorced. Even if the divorce “goes well,” you are still forced to mourn a former love and learn to live without considering him or her in your big life decisions and even some of the smaller day-to-day things. Mourning is an important part of the process that will help you to move on.

Part of mourning will entail taking a look back over the entire relationship. The beginning of my relationship was almost magical. I would hop out of bed every morning happy and thankful for everything I had, pulling the curtains open and saying out loud, “Good Morning, World!” Looking back, I was so pleased with everything around me, including my relationship, because I was able to do everything I loved. I was excelling in my job as a district manager for GM Parts. Our home was filled with music and laughter. I was married to a great person who was committed to God, our family, and country—he was a United States Air Force student pilot. When our children were young, we were still happy. We loved rainy days; the children and I knew we would eventually be dancing in the rain and stomping in the puddles. Gradually all of those things fell by the wayside.

We had our ups and downs, just as any marriage does, but he was always my best friend. I can’t pinpoint an exact moment when that stopped; it was a gradual but steady decline. I became less myself and more just a person who dealt with my husband as he became a somewhat bizarre and difficult person to be around. While the end of our marriage was a slow process, in some ways it felt like happiness just came to a screeching halt. It really started to hit home as my husband become more and more distant and less invested in me, the children, and the marriage. The music and laughter were replaced with hurtful comments or silence. All of my activities, hobbies, and happiness faded away.

I decided to take the reins in my hands and sit down and talk to my husband about our marital issues. I wanted to feel some reassurance that things in our household would get better. I hoped we would make a commitment to being better spouses, which would help us build a household our children would be happy to grow up in. I expressed that there were things I would no longer tolerate should they continue to happen. I guess I was trying to squeeze water out of a stone because his decision had already been made.

Instead of committing to change for the better, my husband continued on the same path, criticizing me or ignoring my existence. During our last six months of marriage, my ex only said one nice sentence to me. He asked, “Do you want me to pick up the grandchildren from school today?” I was shocked to hear the kindness in his voice again. At the time I thought his anger was melting, and things would start getting better. Immediately upon his arrival home I realized reconciliation was not going to happen. His eyes were filled with hatred, and while walking past me, he spat in my general direction. Finally, I decided a separation was the best idea. He did not want a separation (surprise, it wasn’t his idea so it was not a good idea) because he felt a divorce was the best solution. I found I had no real argument with him. I put one foot in front of the other and walked on to my future. This is the story of how I dealt with the end of my marriage and the end of my fears.

Without a doubt, I knew crossing the breach to a new life after the end of a long relationship was going to be extremely difficult. After being married to the same person for the best years of my adult life, I needed to start all over, which required a complete shift in my thinking and actions.

This abrupt alteration of my life was both good and bad. On the negative side, I was hurt because I had lost a love somehow, somewhere; it had slipped away during the years we had been together. On the positive side, I am now fairly confident in the choices I have made (don’t ask me on a bad day), since I am much happier. I no longer need to give away so much of myself fixing a yoke that’s falling apart, anyway. In fact, after I mourned the end of our marriage, I discovered that I felt revived and was ready to do my best to get to know the new, adult, and post-marriage me.

My husband’s decision to divorce was what he wanted. I had absolutely no choice but to put one foot in front of the other and walk on to my future. One step, one breath, one long moment at a time, I decided it was time to begin again. The best part of this decision was realizing that changing priorities in life matters more than you might think.

If I could make it to the other side, so can you!

Thriving after Divorce

Have you ever thought to yourself, “Oh my goodness, how did this happen? How did I get here?” Going through a divorce is never easy, and whether or not it was your idea, you need time to heal. It is very painful and hard enough if you were the one leaving, or even if you both agreed divorce was the best option. However, it can be more difficult if you didn’t see it coming. It can create a maelstrom of emotion. You might feel literally speechless or even hysterical because it is a heartbreaking and painful experience, leaving a family torn apart, confused, and angry. Children are hurt through the process, even if, in the end, it’s best for them, too.

In the initial shock of a divorce, especially when you are caught off guard, your mind most often shields itself with denial to help you survive emotionally. Denial can temporarily help you soak up the initial trauma and the harsh feelings of betrayal, desperation, and rejection. You might be telling yourself, whether consciously or unconsciously, that it isn’t really happening. You may even try to convince yourself that your spouse was just bluffing, and you may avoid telling anyone your mate has left because you are still in utter disbelief.

I know that feeling. You just want to get through the horrific pain that left you feeling as if you had everything inside of you ripped out. The pain is even more intense when you begin to try coping with your own suffering while still maintaining a sense of normalcy for your children.

The laundry is waiting to be done, bills need to be paid, your house needs to be cleaned, there’s work at the office, and your children need you. Getting through the day with all these responsibilities when you’re emotionally torn seems like an impossible feat. And then more bills need to be paid. (For more on the practical realities of life after divorce, see the second book in this series: Divorced and Scared No More! Practical Advice for the Newly Divorced.)

Hurt and denial don’t do the laundry. They don’t pay the bills. They don’t clean your house. You still need to work, more than ever now, yet you need to be your very best at parenting at the same time. It’s a difficult balance, to say the least.

Unfortunately, the world doesn’t stop turning just so you can grieve the end of your relationship. No matter how strong a person you are, a major change in life such as a divorce is bound to leave you staggering before you find your feet again. You need to believe in yourself and know this is definitely not the end of the road, that there is a long journey ahead, and that joy is still possible for you.

Though it won’t happen overnight and probably won’t be as easy to do as it sounds, you will eventually shake the baggage from your past off your shoulders and move ahead full throttle. Everything is yours to handle alone now, but don’t shortchange yourself. You’ve probably been doing it all on your own anyway; now you’ve got to do it without a chunk of the income. So try—again easier said than done—but try to deal with issues head on. Keeping a roof over the kids’ heads and food in their tummies will always come first. Although it seems like money and career can’t wait, you can steal a little time from them. Prioritize! You will never need your skills in prioritizing as much as you need them now.

Recognize also there will be times when you feel alone even in a room full of people. Realize the lonely feelings will not last forever, unless you let them. Take a moment and really think about it: you probably were alone before your ex-spouse physically left, and now you’re dealing with the reality of life without their presence. In some ways, it might be a relief—no more walking on eggshells. You can say whatever you want, whenever you want! You get the bed all to yourself and all the blankets to boot! It’s okay to be you and do the things you like. This is a major life change; time is your friend now. If you work on processing your feelings, time will help heal your wounds. Give yourself permission to accept this transitional period while you work on all the pieces of yourself.

Book Two

Accepting Divorce and Creating a New Future
ow many married people envisions being single, or single with children? For many, it feels like they were living their dreams, happily married with a bunch of beautiful kids, living in a lovely home, and everything was going along smoothly. One day they wake up, finding themselves in the middle of divorce proceedings with dreams shattered into millions of pieces. If this sounds like you, do not feel alone—many of us did not see our marriages falling apart. We were giving up a little bit of ourselves a piece at a time to keep the peace, or we began putting everyone else’s needs first and did not realize what was happening. Some people realize the marriage was a mistake from day one, and they never really invested themselves in it.
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When people are not invested in something, they do not notice changes happening.
There is no such thing as a happy divorce. Any divorce leaves a certain amount of shame, pain, and guilt. Whether you were the one who left or the one who was left, you might feel like a failure. It becomes much harder when there are children involved as everything in all of your lives change.
Soon enough, you begin to wonder, “Why us? What went wrong? What did I do and did not do? Am I not good enough?” You begin to feel enormous guilt. If you have children, they need care and attention, and you seem to feel inadequate as a parent. It is hard to answer questions from children and difficult to protect them from this painful ordeal.
No matter who you are, where you are, or what you do, breakups are tough. Splitting up a relationship you have put a lot of time, emotions, and energy into is a difficult prospect—even if you really do not even like the person anymore. Sometimes, it seems like nothing will ease the pain of a breakup, but all things get better in time. To quicken the pace, understand what breakups mean and learn how to avoid the mistakes of a bad post-breakup phase and get on the road to your future.
Divorce is an extremely stressful, life-changing event. The strain and upset of a major life change can leave you emotionally and physically at risk. You are going through the emotional wringer and dealing with a major life adjustment. If you do not move forward from divorce, you possibly may begin to suffer from chronic health problems such as: high blood pressure, heart disease, and diabetes. It is crucial you take the steps necessary to shield your emotional and physical health and wellness throughout this time.
Divorce is like a death because it is a death of a relationship, so allow yourself to grieve the loss. Despair is a natural reaction to loss, and divorce or the end of a loving relationship involves several losses:
The loss of someone to share your life with and the loss of companionship·
The loss of someone to help you, whether financially, intellectually, socially, or emotionally·
The loss of someone to share your hopes, plans, and dreams with (these losses can be more uncomfortable compared to sensible losses)·
The loss of someone who humiliates you in public·
And the loss of someone who accuses you of being the reason for their unbearable moods, bad behavior, or mistakes·
Acknowledge your emotions and do not combat your feelings. It is normal to have a great many ups and downs, and to feel many conflicting emotions, like anger, resentment, despair, anxiety, worry, insecurity, and confusion. It is essential to recognize these feelings. Most of them suffocated in you long before the divorce when you boxed them in for the sake of the marriage. There is no more need for boxes—these feelings have the chance to escape and be expressed. Let them flutter out like birds.
Even if it is difficult for you to share with friends, it is essential to find a means to do so when you are grieving. While these feelings will frequently be unpleasant, attempting to restrain or dismiss them will only prolong the mourning process; it’s just nice to have a friend who doesn’t mind listening to you talk about your feelings. You may find most of your grieving may be for the loss of the “normal” ideals you had for marriage and not necessarily for the spouse who lived in your home.
Remind yourself you still have a future, even though it’s another future now. It is tough to allow yourself to let go of all those old dreams. Creating the new you is the goal. Acknowledging your feelings can be freeing for you, but remember not to harp on the negative feelings of the past or over-analyze the past. Feelings such as resentment, anger, and blame toward your ex and yourself are very normal. Do not let these feelings consume you because when they are allowed to flourish, they will cheat you and keep you stuck in the past, ultimately delaying you from recovering and progressing. As you grieve, you should be motivated by the reality that brand-new hopes, desires, and opportunities will be filling your life.

Book Three

Lessons to Learn about Yourself
lenty of things will happen in our lives due to our differences. Unfortunately, ending a relationship is sometimes unavoidable, and the transition from marriage to single life is very difficult. But if you do the work to heal and process your past, you will love again. Additionally, this love will be stronger than before because this time you will be better equipped to find the right person.
While you were married, you had somebody to discuss troubles and issues with; now you will need to solve everything on your own. At this time, you have to handle the worries of daily existence unaided, and then go home to a quiet house or possibly a loud house with children to care for alone. It can even be difficult to merely experience an evening at home alone when you have been accustomed to sitting quietly alongside another person. Eventually, though, most individuals find their way out of loneliness to the enjoyment of being alone. Once you enjoy your own company, you are ready to discover companionship in a new, healthy relationship.
Following the death of a marriage, each individual will be ready for dating at a different time. Relationship expert Tamsen Fadal recently said, “It’s not a contest to see who gets out there first. You date when you are ready to get back out there and not before.” Immediately after the official divorce procedures are over, feelings are running at high speed, and suffering people need a chance to heal before putting themselves back in the dating world.
Start dating by dating yourself first. Spend time repairing your self-esteem and taking the time to build up confidence in yourself. Pursue things you wanted to do either before or while you married but never had the time to try. Discover your own desires and dreams (for more on finding your sense of self again after divorce, please see the first book in this
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series, Divorced and Scared No More: Emotional Support for the Newly Divorced). Take time to consider what your hopes are for any new relationship. Recognize all you have to offer another person, realizing why you are worthy of the most wonderful and best possible partner. You are a real catch, and you are lucky to have you. There will come a time when you will want to get back on the dating horse, but for now it may be best to go horseback riding in real life as one of your new activities because the “dating horse” is wild, and it’s easy to get thrown off.
There are many places you can visit on a date with yourself. If at first you are worried that people might notice you are alone, or you feel nervous about being alone, go to an art gallery because most people walk alone from painting to painting with a glass of wine in their hands. Learn some art lingo though, so you can answer someone who may ask you about the non‑organic, neo‑surrealistic avant-garde style. Or go to a game dressed in the appropriate team‑associated clothes, cap, and sunglasses. Get a hamburger, a cool drink, and enjoy yourself. Watch the game, yelling to your heart’s content. Who knows, there might be another fan trying it on their own, and your presence could spark a flame. Getting out into the world again will also prepare you to not feel too awkward on your first date with another person.
With time, you will find yourself wanting to get back into dating again. You are beginning to open your heart, and hopefully it will soon start to swell with love. Unfortunately, for many, there is also a little voice contemplating just what could possibly fail. Say “Hello” to Mr. Nerves and his companion Ms. Jitters. They are so alike, they would probably be a couple by now, but they are both too afraid to ask each other out. They come visit all of us at least once or twice. Acknowledge them and send them on their way.

 
 
 
Tasher was divorced on her 26th wedding anniversary, and she embarked on a new life. Her marriage was broken all to pieces, she was not going to let the divorce break her. Tasher quickly discovered that single life was very different from all those years ago. Like many, she initially was scared. Yet she was determined to become Divorce and Scared NO More!
Despite her dyslexia, she decided to share with others things she learned while rebuilding her life. The launch of DASNM.com quickly received a worldwide following. The logo was inspired by a set of broken pilot wings. No two people will have identical situations, hopefully the DASNM series will assist others with the least amount of trepidation, during this difficult transition.
Tasher is not a professional therapist, rather she is sharing because she has “been there and done that” understanding how it FEELS.
Therapist and clinical author Justin Nutt LSCSW, LAC consults as her technical advisor. Insuring everything presented be accurate and quality material while still being a comforting, easy-to-read guide to surviving divorce.
 
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Surrender of Trust

 
Historical Romance / Regency
Date Published: April 15, 2013
 
Lucy Goodwin knows more about horse breeding than a proper young lady should. Her brother’s thoroughbred business has given her purpose and independence, but when an accident leaves her solely in charge, despair and destruction threaten her every move. Trapped in an impossible position, Lucy must do the right thing and watch their dreams crumble, or save their livelihood at a cost too great to bear. 
 
Lord Philip Lyton, Marquess of Chalifour is a member of the prestigious Jockey Club, dedicated to eliminating cheating in horse racing. Trouble raises its ugly head when his business partner falls foul of an accident and he’s suddenly forced to deal with the man’s sister, who seems alarmingly out of her depth.
 
Chalifour respects Lucy’s steely resolve, but knows that single-mindedness can be the most dangerous trait of all. She might be beautiful and beguiling, but Lucy Goodwin is keeping secrets and Chalifour is determined to find out what they are.
 
 
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This is story with a setting and time period that while I could not relate to, Mariel Grey helped me understand. Surrender of Trust is more than just a Historical Novel, its a lot about what makes people who they become.

There is a lot that goes into writing a novel about a different time and you can really tell that there is no detail that has been overlooked. Superb Historical Romance Novel.

From the moment she could put pen to paper, Mariel Grey knew she wanted to be a writer. Like all good adventures however, it didn’t happen overnight; it was after several decades of working in litigation that the desire to create dramatic worlds and characters became too great to ignore. Her first foray into historical romance, Surrender of Trust, explored the grime and glamour of regency horse racing, following the determined but impoverished Lucy Goodwin and upright Lord Chalifour. Her second novel, A Gentleman’s Surrender,  released in January 2016,  introduced the innocent Lady Monique and tortured Mr. Stanton, both struggling to find love in a world filled with deceit.
 
Though entirely at home in the ballrooms and street alleys of London past, Mariel Grey is currently working on a contemporary story set in Florida, a landscape dear to the author’s heart. When she isn’t conjuring words on her computer screen, Grey can be found on the water fishing, snorkeling, and enjoying the incredible natural beauty of her home.
 
Mariel has a wonderful husband (the hero of her own romantic story) as well as a mischievous cat (who seems happy to play the role of villain). In addition to being a dutiful wife and animal wrangler, Mariel is a member of the Romance Writers of America and the Ancient City Romance Authors chapter.
 
 
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